So I haven't posted anything on here in awhile...

Cause life is pretty good right now. I only really post things up here if I'm upset. But things are actually going really well. I have someone who has become a part of my life, and they treat me better than anyone has done ever before. It's actually so great, and trust isn't an issue. He can go to parties and drink and I know I can trust that he wouldn't hurt me. It's so fantastic having not to worry.

Like the other night he went to a friends 18th, and I got there really late so he was already plastered. I walked in the garage and there he is, on the floor in a bloody dress and a blonde wig and lipstick smeared across his face. It was fucking hilarious! As soon as he saw me he got up and came over to hug me. He is such a dork but I love it. I really am head over heels.

I lost my best friend. We aren't friends anymore... She started hanging out with some other girl at our school. Whatever.. Yeah it sucks because I dont have that close of a bond with anyone else and she just took it all away and gave it to someone else. Buh. It sucks, but I''m getting over it. I guess she has found someone else to entertain her. gah.gah gahgahgahagaghhgasdh.

Apart from that, Jake pretty much makes me the happiest girl a live. He really is the best I've ever had...

Daisy Chainsaw's "Eleventeen" Album

Holy mother of FUCK I love Daisy Chainsaw! Listening through this album is insane. Starts off with the track "I Feel Insane" and god, you can feel Katie Jane Garside's insaneness as the track starts off with some sort of weird chuckle and noise! And the rest of the song is filled with them too! The album is very sludgy kinda punk and grunge mixed in with some really eerie songs and vocals. It was released in 1992 and the tracks are:

1. I Feel Insane
2. You Be My Friend
3. Dog With Sharper Teeth
4. Hope Your Dreams Come True
5. Natural Man
6. Love Your Money
7. Love Ugly Brutal World
8. Use Me Use You
9. Future Free
10. Pink Flower
11. Waiting For The Wolves
12. Everything is Weird

My favorite tracks would have to be "Love Your Money", "Pink Flower" and "You be My Friend". Love Your Money would have to be one of their most well known songs! It's very energetic and fun, you can just bounce around to it. Pink Flower starts off quite punky but then drifts off into some eerie-ish trip that makes you feel like you're on drugs. And You Be My Friend is quite rock n roll through the guitar solo and the repetitive rhythm makes it quite grungey. And Katie Jane Garside's vocals are so hysterical. I like it! :)

Katie is crazy on stage!

Yeah

I'm pretty stupid in going back to read what I have written in my blog. Fuck I sound like the BIGGEST whinge ever.... All I have pretty much talked about is how shitty a relationship has been and what effect it had on me. All for one guy. It's so stupid. I wish i didn't look back on it. And i promised myself I wouldn't delete anything I wrote in here. Anyway, on a brighter note...

Check out this band. I am OBSESSED right now...



Katie Jane Garside, I have the biggest teenage hormonal crush on you. Jizz. She is also in Daisy Chainsaw, who i fucking LOVE. Check them out too. DO IT.

He

...makes me feel beautiful.
He is real.
He is down to earth.
He is lovely, caring and handsome.
He takes away the emptiness.
He takes away the pain and loneliness.
He is fun!

I want this to last.
He is real. He is real. He is real. He is real.

30/3/2010

Let's hope that this time I don't fuck up.
And that it lasts.
And it's for real.

You Know You're Right

God dammit. The feeling of regret is the worst thing in the whole entire world. I hurt him. And i would give ANYTHING to take it back. He is perfect. Like, ACTUALLY perfect. Amazingly perfect. I feel like I don’t even deserve his friendship. What I did was stupid and reckless. No we weren’t exactly together and I didn’t cheat on him, if that’s what you’re thinking. But we could have been together. That’s the thing. But I ruined it! God the things I would do to take everything back. I would be so happy. He would treat me right. God dammit. God dammit. God dammit. He is perfect. Per-fucking-fect. I’m way out of his league.

Memories

Like tidal waves crashing round inside my head.

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